Hello A&A’SMUM
I don't really know exactly what to say to you because I have never been in your situation.
Have you found sources to help you with what you need?
I just want you to know that you are not just "speaking into the wind", but there are people who will listen to you, and send you thoughts of peace and love, as I do now.
- eKim
If you want to just "get it off your chest", we are here to listen.