Hi Tanya99, I’m so sorry to hear about your mom.
Life is so hard. Sometimes, good people are dealt the worse in life. We only want the very best for our loved ones. Instead of thinking about what could have been for your mom, try remembering the good times you shared.
It’s okay to feel frustrated, all kinds of emotions flood in with the death of a loved one.
Like your Mom, breast cancer took mine. At the time she was sick, I remember thinking “if only love was a cure for cancer” and I so wish it was. Yesterday was the sixth anniversary of my Mom’s death. Time has passed, the heart-ripped-out-of-chest feeling is gone but the thing that remains is I still miss her terribly.
Hope this helps, GWTBB