Hello Sweet Face, (that sounds like a special nickname) Welcome to our community. I am glad you found us. My sympathy to you.
You will find there are others here like Dar64 and Myblueeyedman who will understand your grief and loss.
My rock posted to lost from a broken heart after the death of his wife. If you go to that thread you will also meet NatR and Mark99. If you post to that thread, they will be notified and respond to you I am sure.
Are there others around you who help you cope Sweet Face? NL is very close to my heart. Are you close to the ocean? I have found the water has healing power.
I look forward to talking again.
Katherine