Hello,
thank you for your kind words, it helps me feeling less alone to see I am not the only one suffering grief.
@ekim, thank you for the books I will look for them in French. You are very brave helping people :)
@ Nouce, merci beaucoup on m'a conseillé d'écrire à Mizael ( mon fiancé s'appelle Mizael), je lui écrit régulierement quand je suis triste ou que je des doutes et je me sens immédiatement apaisé. je lui parle aussi beaucoup et relis les messages qu'on s'est écrit.
as you advise me Katherine I will try to be more gentle with me and stop pressuring my to feel good and happy. My titi89 nickname came from tweety the cartoon ( in French he is called titi and my dad always call me like that) and the 89 is the region number where I came from
hace a nice evening and thank you again for your support