Dear Maggie502
Thank you for sharing an update. I think you are right about grief, it is unique to each of us, We all have to find our own path through, and for the most part it's a very personal journey. Yet, it feels more manageable when we know others are also on the path. Some a bit further ahead, some right beside, and some just starting out. Working with a counsellor and participating in the guided imagery course sound like they were helpful for you. Even the big cry you have sounds really important, although a bit overwhelming perhaps.
It sounds like you and your brother had a connected relationship. Quite a few other people on the forum talk about the person who died as someone who 'got" them, especially their unique sense of humor or the way they saw the world, My dad is always sending me jokes and videos over email that he knows I'll like. And I do. I'll miss them terribly when dies. What a treasure to have videos to watch of your brother presenting at conferences.
Take great care today, I will send warm thoughts your way,
AMT