Hello Caroline
I am sorry that you are going through all of this. I hope that you have people who are offering their support.
If you need a place where caring people will listen to your story and share their own stories, then you’ve found it.
The beauty of this experience is that you can read the stories of several people. Then - from it all – you simply take what you need and leave the rest.
Have you spoken to a professional (i.e. social worker/counsellor)? They may be the best ones to guide you through your maze.
I cannot offer anything from my life’s experiences compared to yours. But I hope that your spirits are buoyed a wee bit knowing that this world is full of good, kind people who are wishing you well.
Love and peace to you. - eKim