Hi JImmie,
Thank you for caring. I do read all the posts. My mind has been very muddled. I feel like I am adrift on the sea and don't know where to land. I have been a caregiver all my life and have always been responsible for someone. For the first time I only have myself.
When you have been defined by others all your life and now that is all gone where do you go? Who am I ? So I have been working with a counselor to redefine and find myself. We give so much over the years that we lose who we are as individuals.
So that dear Jimmie is where I am. Some good days, some bad days. Never know when the "moments" will hit me. Restless, confused, tired and drifting.
I have been doing some traveling and I am fulfilling a livetime dream or building a cabin in the woods. It is my refuge and a dream come true. The family is planning on spending CHristmas there as the thought of doing Christmas as we always have is to much for all of us.
I do have childrena nd grandchildren, but hte all have lives of there own. So I am living one day at a time. Am going to start back doing volunteer work.
Thanks for you thoughts
Virginia