It is heartbreaking and crushing to face this alone or with a fully functional support system. It gnaws at us from the inside. You're not alone we all understand that hurt and the associated anticipatory grief and loss.
When Donna was diagnosed with stage IV cancer we knew there was no happy ending. I began to grieve. That was three years prior to her death. And after her death my grief remains.
Yet, I've learned that the wound of grief allows light to enter us. It gives us knowledge, understanding, and memories that enlighten us. I charged at my grief to learn from it to understand it and embrace it.
It can feel like grief is a bitter pitcher of lemonade. Memories can be that sugar in that lemonade of grief. We're here with you to listen, support, and share. We got you.
Mark