Dear Angie,
as Colleen has said, you are still feeling like your loss happened yesterday,
welcome to the forum. There are many of us here, some who have lost parents, partners, all kinds of loss, all kinds of journeys back to some kind of bearable life.
i am a caregiver, retired now but loved my work in long term care - I have lost members of my family, and I can tell you that grief and loss is something we are very individual in.
the forum is a safe place to say what's on your mind, and take one step at a time with the support of others who have - against all odds, come out the other side of loss.
i hope you will write and let us know the rough moments so we, I, others, can respond. Being alone, afraid to weigh down others with your pain is very hard.
being told to "get on with life, get over it" are instructions we cannot do on command.
but here you have a place to be without judgement, and with compassion we will respond;)
you are being thought of today.
as you share with us, you will learn about the struggles we deal with, and as a support group we are here for each other.
i have found that to be true for me as well, as this year has been a tough one for me...
sending you thoughts and good wishes,
write when you can, we are real people with hearts just like yours;)
NatR